An Open Letter to 2020 (and a confession)
** Before I begin this letter, I’m bursting at the seams to tell you:
I’ve written the companion guide to my original book, The Chaos Antidote: A Fable About Mindfulness. This new companion guide, The Chaos Antidote: Six-Week Mindfulness Workbook, will be available on Amazon and other major online retailers soon (hopefully by Christmas!) Stay tuned, friends!**
Dear 2020,
I’m not sure where to begin this letter. We’ve been at odds for nigh on 12 moons.
I’m itching to rant about some things …
…the lack of childcare help
… losing my dad
… everything closing, reopening, closing, not sure
… trying to run a business while overseeing two kids eLearning
… worrying constantly about exposing our family and others to sickness
… worrying about loved ones growing lonely
… toilet paper
But you know all this and more—about me and billions of other people around the globe.
As the year draws to a close, I’m here to come clean.
I have a confession: I’ve fought reality. All. 2020-Year. Long.
(And I haven’t won.)
… I tried to cover all the childcare help. (#formulafordisaster #ifmamaainthappy)
… I tried to overachieve to drown my sadness from losing my beloved father.
… I tried to escape the impact of the world closing down, sickness and loneliness abounding in loved ones (and myself).
In my book, “The Chaos Antidote: A Fable About Mindfulness”, one of the characters says that she’s decided to stop fighting. But it’s not about giving up. It’s about surrender, a wholly separate thing.
To me, surrender means accepting what is. That doesn’t mean everything’s hunky-dory, and God knows it doesn’t mean I have to like it.
It just means I acknowledge the way things are and quit thrashing against it. Then I’m in a place of power to move forward in a positive direction, not ignoring, raging at or sugar coating things.
I surrender. I’m going to practice saying it out loud. Want to join me?
(Deep breath in. And long breath out.)
I surrender.
I surrender.
I surrender.
(Deep breath in. And long breath out.)
I wish you love, light and many moments of blissful surrender in the weeks to come. (And, of course, plenty of toilet paper!)
Holiday blessings to you and yours,
Aimee